Bold Prayers? Dreams?

I sit.
Staring at the wall.

Bold Prayers? Dreams? God's Dream for my life?

This month the question has been circling in my head. Every morning I sit at my desk and there written on the chalk board, "God Dreams"

What dreams does He have for my life?

I sit.
I ask myself what can they be?

My mind automatically rattles down the list of the things I think they should be.
My relationship with my family.
My son, my husband, mom, dad, sis.
My ministry as nurse.
My husband's ministry.
My health.
My friends.
My hobbies.

A list.
A list of good things.
Things I believe He has blessed my life with.

But are these really my dreams? My bold prayers?

I sit.
How do I know?

I try to think of ways to figure it out.
What books have I read? What books should I read?
Who should I call to pray about these things for me?
Maybe I should write them down.
Pin them on my prayer board.

This list of good things. God things that He has blessed my life with.

What makes them my dreams? How are they my bold prayer? Are they too vague? Should I be more specific? Can I attain them on my own? Are they too impossible to even dream? Not impossible enough?

All month the words of a song have been running through my head.

"Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hand"

My mind feels as if I've been running a million miles an hour in every direction.
Somedays feeling as if I can barely keep my head above water.
I've been asking God how can I know His will in my life? His dreams for me? His bold prayers for me?

I've been searching, asking, looking, asking, asking, asking.

Sitting in my chair, though my body may have been still. My mind, running, never stopping.

"When the oceans rise
And thunders roar
I will soar with You
Above the storm
Father You are King
Over the flood
I will be still and know
You are God"

This time I sit.
Miles from the chair that sits at the desk.
Miles from that chalk board that says, "God Dreams"

I sit literally on top of a mountain. Looking out over what He has created.
My body had been moving. Working hard to get there.
But when I reach the top, He calls to me.

Sit & Be Still

"Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust"

He says, “Be still, and know that I am God" Psalm 46:10

Photo by Laura Maxson

~kartini r. maxson

Still
(Reuben Morgan)

Verse 1
 Hide me now
 Under Your wings
 Cover me
 Within Your mighty hand

 Chorus
 When the oceans rise
 And thunders roar
 I will soar with You
 Above the storm
 Father You are King
 Over the flood
 I will be still and know
 You are God

 Verse 2
 Find rest my soul
 In Christ alone
 Know His power
 In quietness and trust